Part I Who am I and What is My Purpose Here
Feeling the Truth …Somewhere
The Search for Me
I am sharing this part of myself with hope that my story may help others who are having a difficult time believing wholeheartedly in any religion – those ultimately giving up on the search for their true spiritual selves, like I once did.
While I never did end up believing in any one religion, I did find the truth and I did find me.
True Spiritual Awareness – It’s the center of all knowing. The core of all good and happiness. And it’s essential for your life and the evolution of our children.
Please keep in mind, the following is NOT an anti-religion piece, but a peek inside the journey that I was taken on in search of my own true self, or my higher self – Whatever you want to call the part of you that exists as the higher being, THE GOD WITHIN YOU.
Let us remember this important fact: Religion historically has played the part in interpreting the higher energy of the universe and the energy inside ourselves.
Many years have passed since my journey first began in search of my higher self. It all started at a very tender young age, not long after I had just learned how to read.
I wanted to know the answer to this age-old question, the answer that we all want to know, “who am I and what is my purpose here?”
I recall sitting down one afternoon beside a small wooden end table that sat beside our brown tweed couch in the living room and opening a very large book that was placed neatly on top of a doily my great-grandmother had made. I knew that this book was holy to many. It seemed to hold the answers to all of life’s questions.
Eager to devour its knowledge, I prayed to God that I would be made his and only his as I heard from others that this was indeed the answer to what I was seeking. I wanted to understand. I wanted to be a good person. And I wanted to know where my place was in his eyes.
As you might have guessed, this holy book was the bible. Filled with many enlightening words, to my dismay I also found it filled with ridiculous and incredible stories which included brutal killing of entire populations in cities sought out for total annihilation in which God himself lead.
I found myself questioning the reasoning behind why so many chose to follow this God, word for word, giving him their all.
I began to question everything. Besides what was written inside the bible, I began to wonder how the ritual of bowing, kneeling and chanting during Catholic services, where many times I found myself fast asleep in the pew, was going to help me.
I didn’t know exactly what I was looking for, but I did know I would recognize the feeling once I had found it.
Throughout my teen years and into young adulthood, I attended various Christian churches where I sat among others and listened to preachers as they waved the Bible furiously in our faces as they loudly bellowed out among the crowd that we would all go to Hell and suffer damnation if any chose not to follow this God inside the pages.
When a human being is lost and confused, all hell breaks loose.
Lost and confused, through my experience with religion, I developed a sense of unworthiness. It wasn’t that I did not want to follow the higher road to becoming the best person that I could possibly be. I did. It was my inability to wholeheartedly believe in something that everyone around me believed in, in the way that they believed, that banished me from the club.
So, an outcast I became.
Needless to say, my journey in search of my true self eventually stopped and I was left with endless days of attempting to fill the void of my emptiness inside with things that never seemed to quite satisfy. One thing after another. Forever searching.
I had no passion really, not for anything that truly mattered, but there was always something deep inside, nudging me, reminding me …of something. I just did not know what for sure.
It wasn’t until much later that I realized, that something that was nudging me all along was trying to tell me there was more to life than simply following others blindly down a very narrow path into a passionless life filled with endless unfulfillment.
It’s a walking death that many live today, one in which we believe we will be cured of by losing our excess weight, improving our sex lives, finding another mate, or taking that miracle pill for our depression and anxiety, or perhaps even by improving our financial status so that we can buy more things to fill our emptiness inside.
All an endless barrage of fixes used to cover up the real reason for why we feel as we do when all the while our only need is to find our higher selves, and through this, all things in the universe come together to create harmony for the world and for the life that we desire.
One can still be lost, even though they claim to be religious. If one never finds their higher self, what good is religion?Click To Tweet
I weep for the needless amount of time spent lost by many. Help our youth to see. OUR CHILDREN ARE EVERYTHING.
Dr. Wayne Dyer was one of my greatest teachers. I highly recommend any of his CDs below.
These are wonderful to listen to while on your way to work or driving around town. Learn to have a more spiritual and fulfilling life now.
See you next week for
PART II WHO AM I AND WHAT IS MY PURPOSE HERE?
Finding the REAL Truth …The Road Less Traveled.
Where we’ll explore
Religion and Spirituality – There is more than one road to YOU.